Every other shade of gray.

Depression sucks.

It just does!  It sucks the fun, joy and color out of every thing that is fun joyful and brilliant around you. 

Being the hypo-manic person I am, there are times when, for no reason at all, depression descends.  It is not an overwhelming, drowning or suffocating depression.  But its the kind of thing that takes the happy edge off of everything in such a subtle way that there are times when I don't even know its happened and have to look back and say, "Oh ya, I think I was a little depressed."

The thing is, there are a lot of people who get depressed as a function of our brains.  Its not because he's an asshole or she's a bitch (although, it can certainly appear that way at times), and since none of us will ever know for sure how another person feels or perceives something, it can be really hard to understand.

I have begun to notice that when my mood is at its lower point I actually see things a little differently then I would normally and perceive them in a questionable if not negative way. 

ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS!!  Coming out of this frame of mind, into an amazing summer day is one of the best experiences you can possibly know.  Its like everything has got color to the third power, everything smells 300 times better and being alive is so incredibly brilliant!!

Statistically more people suffer from some kind of depression than don't.  So the next time someone you know and love is off, being cranky, bitchie, or moody, give them some space and the benefit of the doubt as they are more than likely to come out of it on their own, and they will love you twice as much as ever afterwards.

Sometimes it takes seeing things in black and white to make you wonder at all the color.

Peace and such!

M

First ten random songs on my Ipod.

Yes, Im doing it again....here is a list of ten songs as they came randomly on my Itouch...with links to you tube for you listening and or viewing pleasure!

Men Without Hats - Safety Dance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjPau5QYtYs

Lisa, Lisa and the Cult Jam in Full Force - Head to Toe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51Iq8JmmfxY

Loreena McKennitt - The Mummers Dance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lc7Ke9Org9U

Bananarama - Preacher Man
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whZClCZ74_M

The Propeller Heads - History Repeating
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzLT6_TQmq8

Frankie Valie - Grease
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v1V7EwR5w2A

Aerosmith - Sweet Emotion
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvKF3WQYADk

The Mary-Jane Girls - My House
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RENIRXApuW8

White Town -  I Could Never Be Your Woman
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3OMEWH8vilU

Donnie Iris - Ah Leah
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YH5Arbm47IQ

So, I like all of these songs but I have to admit that they are not at all representative overall in my taste in music....or maybe they are....whateves....

XOXOX
Mahkie

Bloggins is FUN!!

Blogging IS fun!  Aside from the usual writers block associated with specific topic blogging (ie, my WOW blog that is currently adrift in a topic-less sea), I thought it might be fun to start a more general blog that I can use to vent thoughts on, well, whatever I feel the urge to talk about, and more than the three or four sentences that usually compose a Facebook post.

So let me give you an idea of what may be coming in these posts.

People who have know me for a long time know that I am very immature, over-sensitive, in-sensitive, trite, and surly, while alternately being thoughtful, funny, insightful and on rare occasion, unusually wise.  These are all things that I want to bring to the table.  I am very aware of the fact that I am not perfect, and may post things that might be better left unposted.....OR I could go on for five paragraphs about how I hate my socks.  Movies, TV, media, news, the weather, animals, rain, my toes, my tummy, my eyes., people, places and vegetables!  Anything is fair game as well as my offering to anyone to make comment or suggestion!

 So thats enough of an intro, I suppose.

I look forward to sharing myself with you all.

M